The Unheard Agony

"Where this pain coming from? Oh the heart aches.. A lot more than I thought.. The pain making me feel faintish. I need water.. Yes water.. Where it is now..?? 

Thank God ! I kept a glass of water beside the bed before I came to sleep.. I reached out the glass.. My hand need little more stretching to get the glass... 

I tried to move myself a little further.. 

Oh no..!! My body is numbed.. Heart pains.. My breathing is becoming heavy.. Sweat starts pouring despite the cold weather. 

Suddenly fear strucks my heart.. Is this the time..? Is this the time of painy departure..? 

"My Kids, My family... Images flows to my darken mind.. The happy faces, the wonderful moments, the love and harmony I had all around with them... 

My eyes lenseed with tears... Suddenly  all the tears I have kept hidden all along gushes down drenching my heart in it which makes it heavier than before... Oh no!! Now I can't even see anything... Suddenly I realized I needed water... 

"Oh my darling......  " I call out the names of my lovely children, my wife... Time passes... They didn't show up in the room rushing to help me out... 

Why they are late to come to me..??  Why...?? 

Only then the reality strikes to my heart... I am all alone.... I am in an empty room... There is no one other than me.. I even don't  have anyone to give me a final sip of water.. My heart sighs... It become s heavier than I can bare... The pain gave me the best it could.. I am going to lie down and welcome my last moment... 

Wait.... 

Let me see the what I can for one last time.. I opened my eyes... All I see is the bitter darkness... In a far corner I can see a dim night bulb hanging.. Isn't it just like me...? Dim and lonely... 

I Close my eyes to see more colours behind my eyeballs... It has been three years I came for this deserted country to create lives for the love of my life... My wife, my four kids are center of my world. I work here all alone, surviving with some fast foods, waking up everyday for an empty world, hide all my sorrows in a lonely smile, just to create the world my little treasures wanted... 

Thinking of this made me smile.. A genuine one. My efforts didn't go invain. I wish I can have more time to devote my life time for my people.. I'll go and take that pain for the smile of them. 

Oh!! My wishes are not granted... The pain I had in Chest travelled to my throat... It's forcing me to give up.. 

Wait... I have one more thing to do... I raise my hands... Oh god! Let my family have the strength to bear the loss.. Give them the courage to smile once again full and sound.. Oh God be with them and give them what ever the best they want in life.. I am happy. Even my last moment I did the best I can for my love in my life...

I sighed the heaviest breath..... " 

These are the struggles every father goes through specially whan they are alone in some other country.. 

Dads wake up everyday to an empty space to our make lives full and sound. Dads lives in isolation to fill our lives with the beauties we want. Dads skip their meals just to make sure our stomachs are full.. These silent struggles of every father we often don't see as they hide their pain behind their smile.. 

The cruelty of the life of a dad living abroad all alone is something cannot spoken out by words... All the effort and pain they take it silently just for the love they have in their hearts... 

The love of a father is unique and soo much pure. 

Respect your fathers and show all the love while you can... 

Because time go so soon... And those precious treasures also will be gone so soon.. 

So soon even before we realize it's gone....