Thoughts

"Where this pain coming from? Oh the heart aches.. A lot more than I thought.. The pain making me feel faintish. I need water.. Yes water.. Where it is now..??  Thank God ! I kept a glass of water beside the bed before I came to sleep.. I reached out the glass.. My hand need little more stretching to get the glass...  I tried to move myself a little further..  Oh no..!! My body is numbed.. Heart pains.. My breathing is becoming heavy.. Sweat starts pouring despite the cold weather.  Suddenly fear strucks my heart.. Is this the time..? Is this the time of painy departure..?  "My Kids, My family... Images flows to my darken mind.. The happy faces, the wonderful moments, the love and harmony I had all around with them...  My eyes lenseed with tears... Suddenly  all the tears I have kept hidden all along gushes down drenching my heart in it which makes it heavier than before... Oh no!! Now I can't even see anything... Suddenly I realized I needed water......